Aashima's blog

Standing alone,  Hidden within the shadows.  I kept waiting at our promised place.  The beautiful summer sky,  illuminating with bright hue.  I cried a little as I left,  the promised place without you.  I walked through the narrow road,  trembling alone with my numb feet.  Reminiscing the memories,  From the first day to the day you cheat.  I visited there every day on the same time,  With tiny hope that you would come by.   But you forgot the promise we made, And filled my heart with some more lie.  Standing alone,  Hidden within the shadows.  I kept waiting at our promised place.  Its been a year, visiting our promised place everyday.  Waiting for you to come, And to make you stay.  I have decided to stop coming here, and erase the memories this place hold.  I am sorry I could not win your heart,  thats brutal, hard and cold.  I am leaving this place,  keeping the memories safe and sound.  Someday if you ev

We were celebrating their 65th marriage anniversary in a hospital room of oncology ward. The room was filled with devoid of sadness and anguish, the wall were simply creamy and the floor was grey in color. At the far end were windows in brown metal frames. There were stands for intravenous drips and monitors. The room had a stagnant smell.  And there he was, laid down on that bed. His eyes were closed, matching his breaths to the beeping of the machines that surrounded the bed; the only indication of his heartbeat and his existence. His skin looked so fragile that it felt like it would ruptures on anything more than the softness of her touch. He slowly opened his eye which was not focused but randomly moving, obscured with cataracts. His hair was wispy over a scalp. Needles were pricked into his skin to deliver nutrition to his body. Morphines were rushed into his vein to give him pain-free moment with her.  She had rest her hand on his, feeling the coldness in his fingers.

                       The sweet refrain of your acoustic guitar speaks a musical language to my soul. The strumming sound hypnotically soothes my heart and I loose myself to the melody of your voice. The lyrics swims through my cerebral cortex like a wakeful dream. It flows through my veins and swirl down in my head.  Every time I hear you sing, I feel blissful. I get lost in your voice with all that lyrics thrilling down my heart.  Falling in love with you was never planned but our stars aligned and a great force pulled me towards you. Your glistening cerulean eyes had a power of washing away my sorrows.  I don’t know how I started falling for all those weird little things you do.  It feels like liquid adrenaline is injected right into my bloodstream whenever you are around.  But, Loving you secretly is a torture, as Its painful to think that you are damaged with betrayal and wont ever let anyone come into your life. I feel helpless to see you avoiding love. Bu

Yes, I am ugly,  And I am happy with it.  You told me how ugly those scars on my wrist are that they didn’t look fine,  But you never knew the story behind them when I couldn’t shine.  You scratched them to erase and made me look pretty,  But you never embraced them but instead made me feel shitty.  You told me how ugly big thighs I have and teased me for that,  But you never unfolded those days when I was crying and chocolates were all I had.  You pointed those stretch marks on my waist and complained about them,  But you never held me tight to fix those gaps but instead made me feel lame.  You told me how ugly those pimples and blackheads looked on my face,  But you never kissed my forehead and called me beautiful in that phase.  You bought me extra make up products so you could introduce me with your friends,  But you never made me feel good on my skin and instead followed those beauty trends. Yes, I am ugly,  And I am happy with it.  You

                                    If You ask me who was he, then I would say,  He was the person who made me fall in love and also the same person who made me never do that again!  He was like fireworks,  His sparks glittered my world and took me up high.  Burst out with all those colors and lightening,  Amused me for a while  And within seconds, disappeared.  Burned me down and vanished in scattered clouds.  He was like ocean,  His calmness and softness touched my soul.  Filled my heart with purity and sanity With all that depth I could only see the surface  and within seconds, his waves destroyed me.  Drowned me inside that duskiness with no place to escape.  He was like flower,  His fragrance sedated me completely. Touched my soul with those soft petals and hallucinated me with its beauty.  and within seconds, his thrones brutally ran through my heart and absorbed all that love and trust I had.  then filled all of them inside him and

Its almost midnight when suddenly my phone beeps. Calming myself down, I reached into the message box.  “Hey. Can we meet tomorrow?" That's what your message read. You texted me today after one whole year.  In the sweet rain wash darkness, the sound of your message became melodious in my ear soothing my soul.  It was long back time in spring when you entered my life. In that spring, You fell like an autumn leaf. waiting to be nurtured. Wanting the colors. To be preserved. You were frozen river in middle of the summer. A broken frown in middle of the smile.  I provided you the warmth. I flourished your life with fragrance of love. When I first looked upon your face, it was not on the perfect features that I dwelled. Not the gold flecked brown eyes, nor the pomegranate pink lips. Instead it was the small blemishes and insecurities that allured me. The small scar on the forehead. The slightly crooked tooth. Now, when I look upon your face, I lose myself. My hea

“Long distance relationship”  A life with these miles between us is inexorable. This distance makes me feel gruesome, I feel like our relationship is the rain and that sky holds nothing but the promise of some more storms. The longer I am apart, the more these uncertainties fester and grow into legitimate crises.   Sometimes, it gets immense and hard when all I want is a hand to hold on and an arm to lean on and then none of it comes which makes my world cold and empty. When I see nice romantic place, I wish you were here. When I see a romantic couple, I feel “How lucky they are”.  I want to hug you whenever I feel blissful but I can just send stickers. I want to hold your hands but I can just leave voice messages on messenger. I want capture so many photographs with you but I can just screenshot our video call and admire you sleeping while talking. I want to pull your cheek and run my hand on your hair but I can just touch the screen and feel that cold empty glass. 

“I will always rise”  Just like my hopes springing high,  I will never fall down and will always rise!  You might play every fake roles to pull me down,  But I have high dreams ahead that wont ever slowdown.  You might drag me down into that hollow space,  But I wont ever give up and will definitely win the race.  You might giggle around making filthy fake jokes on my personal life,  But those statements wont obstruct my ambitions to take a dive.   You might shoot me with your words and kill me with your hate,  But you cant break the dreams I created with my hard work and fate.  Just like my hopes springing high,  I will never fall down and will always rise!  You might bring every nightmares threatening, long and wide,  But I will sail down that black ocean even in the dangerous tide.  You might make fun of times where I was lost in pain,  But only I know how strongly I walked away through that stormy rain.  You might bring every cold, d