Dear Ex 😊

Dear ex,
I hope you are doing fine and I hope You found the light at the end of the tunnel without me. I know you are happy and in a state of euphoria since you left. You might now think that I have kept all the toxicity and venom of your betrayal in my life for breaking me down but I don't! and I am not mad at you as well. you know why? Because you are no more the guy I loved. You are someone else and I don't know this guy!

I remember the day when you were on your knees infront of all my friends. The day when You proclaimed the love you had in your heart for me by framing it with your emotions and then served into mine soul through your divine words. I turned all red and my heart was pounding a race. Every beats were pulverize with that resplendent and majestic eyes of yours.

I was not able to utter a word and just cried. You locked me into your arms with a tight hug. That tear was of happiness, Happiness of beautiful journey we started that day.

I was ready to spent all my life voyaging along your side. That moment, I gave myself entirely to you, with all my soul and leaving no corner of it hidden from you.

I still remember those beautiful days, Those late night video calls when I slept with my screen on and you stared at me whole night just to admire my beauty.

I remember how I overreacted on a small cut on my finger while chopping onion and then you held my hand and with a gentle sensation of your lips on my finger fixed that cut in instant. I still remember the magic touch of yours which fixed my all the broken pieces in place.

I still remember, the agreement letter I wrote on how we will be together forever and you laughed by reading it and then signed. I remember how childishly I slept on your lap and how you pampered me like a baby.

 I still remember how understanding and mature you were and how you held me tight.

I remember how I got angry over you for coming late and then how lovingly you said sorry with that sad face.
I remember how I was going to take a bus and you grasp my hand and said "Lets have a walk today". I remember all those little things that made me fall for you all over again in those past days.

You entered my life and everything was so perfect. Just like those fairy tales, My prince was there in my life. I was on cloud nine. I felt like this is my wonderland and you belong to me. But as it says, Nothing last forever.

 That was what happened to our love life. Everything was same unless you changed. As it is said, change is the only thing that remains constant. You were no longer the guy I fell in love with. I remember how you changed.

I remember those days when you slept early just because you were bored to talk with me. I also remember those days when you kept my call on hold and talked with other people around.

I also remember how easily you flirted with other girls and I had to be okay with it. I also remember how I had to tolerate all your frustration and anger when I was not even the reason behind it. I remember how low and unwanted you made me feel. When I cried to death and you said "Dont piss me off"!

I remember how cruel and brutish you become and then broke me down, Leaving me helpless and alone. I felt abandoned and left unescorted in middle of nowhere. I remember how you changed and how Your love changed with the changing season.

I remember that change you from "I love you and it is forever" to "I dont want you in my life anymore" I realized how shortly "Forever" ended and that was so easy for you.

I remembered how your vow changed from "I will be with you till death do us part" to "I don't care even if you die" !

When you were my boyfriend, you were the radiant moon in the blank canvas of my life’s dark night skies. But after you left in that chaos of hollowness, It was hard ! I knelt and pushed myself hard with your thoughts hovering around my heart and wrapped myself in several linen of those beautiful memories and several barrel and blades of those hurtful things you did at the end!

Yes, It was hard indeed. It was hard to move on from late night thoughts of you. I was drowning in pool of alcohol to sedate those memories of you. I craved for your name to pop up on my screen. I died every single night waiting for that one "I am sorry" message which would still melt me down. But I am thankful to never get that.

I was seeking for the love that never belonged to me. I realized that the guy I fell in love with, died already. Now, there is this cruel selfish person living in your body and I don't love him! The guy I love is already safe in my memory and Nobody can take him away, Not even you!

I don’t feel revengeful that you aren’t in my life anymore. I feel grateful that you were there for some time. I will forever cherish those moments I had with you. Sometimes relationship is not about reaching the destination but enjoying the journey and waving a cheerful goodbye.

I am glad that I came across you in my life and loving you made me aware of the depth of my heart. I never want anything bad for you. All I want is, takecare of the guy I loved which is inside you. He gets scared of dark so please always lighten him up and keep him safe ❤️

Not yours anymore,
ex lover ❤️