Beloved Self

                          "Beloved self"

Beloved self,
I am sorry to love you less❤️

I am sorry for all those tears and pain I gave,
and those lonely lost nights when I couldn't help!
I am sorry For making you feel worthless and pity everyday,
and putting you on bottom of priority list anyway!

I am sorry for leaving you empty and filling other's life,
and not finding the light inside you that was needed on time!
I am sorry for loving someone who was so dishearten and cruel,
and couldn't save when he treated you like a tool!

Beloved self,
I am sorry to love you less❤️

I am sorry for not accepting you with all those flaws and insecurities of own,
When you were the only one to make me feel loved and never left alone!
I am sorry for trusting him and letting him broke me down,
and you were the one to help me move on and always stayed around!

I am sorry for the scars I filled in your soul with scratches of heartbreak,
and staying on those memories which was full of lies and fake!
I am sorry for everything I did in past days,
but this new me will love you and will always praise!

Beloved self,
I am sorry to love you less❤️

I am sorry for making you weak and shallow,
And leaving the heart in sadness and hollow!
I am sorry for forcing you to call him when he ignored,
and hoped for him to pick it up when he was bored!
I am sorry for loving a jerk like him who left you broken,
and swallowed all those bitter things he had spoken!

I am sorry, My beloved soul, I am sorry to you,
I just want to love you more which will be true!
I am sorry I need myself this time to hold onto me,
and if thats what call selfish then I am ready to be!

Beloved self,
I am sorry to love you less ❤️
       
                                            -Aashima 👧🏻

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