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                           "    Heartless   " You call me heartless, but honey, Those who are heartless, once cared too much! That night when I waited for your call, I was missing you and the fading love of ours made me feel dull! You were busy ignoring me and finding new reasons to tell, When I was flushed in tears and my face looked pale! For all those tears you gave, I still tried to give you happiness, But it was never enough and you left me in loneliness! I always tried to change myself according to your wishes and need, I left all my friends just because that made you feel insecure and I wanted to grow our love seed! You call me heartless, but honey, Those who are heartless, once cared too much! I always had to be okay with your "flirty messages" to someone else, where as, I was decorating our love with fascinating fairy tales! I was so much blind in your love that I even forgot my existence, but you never even assured me that we will b

To everyone who is going through depression, I know how it feels. I know you are suffering. I know you are drowning.. Drowning into this ocean! You are asking for help, screaming and raising your hand, just with the hope that someone will hold it and pull you out. But instead, You are paranoid with the thought of everyone watching and laughing at you. You feel alone in that crowd. You feel like nobody will ever listen to your screams and then you keep on drowning down, down and down and then slowly you give up asking for that one hand to hold you. you come to this point where you find no escape. You feel like you don't matter at all. and All of a sudden after you give up, You feel something.. Something that is trying to pull you under that ocean. At first, you try to swim away, but after a while, you become comforted with it. Subconsciously, you start swimming in areas where it’s easier for that thing to grab your ankle and pull you down. The fact that they are trying to

I still remember, remember those promises That we made! The beautiful vows we made together, living by each other's side forever and ever! Those vows of getting married and going to our favorite honeymoon destination, Living to the fullest and spending whole life with love sensation! I was always scared that you might leave me someday because of my imperfection, but you assured me that you wont ever do that as I had become your obsession! I build this palace of our promises and topped it with my emotion, we were in cloud nine and were revolving around each other with that rotation! I still remember, remember those promises That we made! Then, you made me crazily fall in love with you, and you started drifting apart and giving me love back which was only few! That was still enough for me to hold us together forever, but you went away leaving me in the chaos of emptiness and told me, "Its over" I cried and begged and tried everything to fix it togethe

☘️ The inspiring little girl☘️ (Based on my posting in oncology ward) It was my first day in oncology ward. I had mixed feelings of curiosity and sadness. Most reporting of people with cancer refers to their 'fight' with cancer. We often read or hear how someone has ‘won their fight against cancer’ or they have ‘lost a long battle with cancer’. I was going to meet cancer patient, who were fighting their battle for life! Who were facing worst kind of pain, The kind of pain that anybody could ever imagine and who were going through worst physical condition, alopecia, chemotherapy, weakness and many more! As I walked into oncology ward, among all those cancer patient, my eyes met a 10 yrs old girl who was connected with IV line of toxic chemo drugs running through her veins and she was watching something on her phone. I grabbed her file and walked towards her.  She was under her 5th chemo cycle. She looked at me and flashed her sweetest smile. That smile literally melted me

To everyone who is broken, Its okay, Its okay to feel sad. Its okay to cry out loud. Its okay to listen to your sad lonely playlist all over again. Its okay to feel that emptiness. Its okay to do everything that release your anger and frustration over that situation. Its okay to lock your room and scream out loud your pain. Be destructive or be silent. Just do everything that helps you to get over it! Take your time to feel it all. But just don't run away. Don't run away from these things, but accept them. Don't let these things haunt you but Acknowledge them for making you stronger. You might now feel like, You are the only one going through all this but look around. There are thousands of people struggling and fighting their own battle and then getting scars and bruishes of pain and heartbreaks. Don't ever feel like the whole pain is in your lonely shoulder and nobody will ever understand you. There might be people who are going through more hard situation but stil

I am slowly loosing this grip of someone I held so strong! Vanishing wishes, along with promises of our hopes and dreams! And though the season has changed, The "love" is still here but Your "love for me" is changed for "someone else". Its hard to believe the fact that someone with so many memories, is Holding someone else! But, I am trying to hold myself strong and pretend everything is fine. You might be laughing at my condition now But I will definitely come back with my sparkle someday! They say, Love never change! But they never told you that "loved one" might change. I always wonder, Is it same with her too? Are those promises you made with me, You made with her too? those dreams we made together, Do you imagine those dreams with her too? How can you suddenly replace that love so easily? How can you replace all those memories with someone new? I got thousands of reason to "hate you" but still my heart wont let you go

She: No, you are not ready to be with a mess like me. I am stubborn, immature, little crazy girl with scars.I get angry over small things and later, apologize for doing so. I am paradox, When I say I hate you and leave me alone, I actually mean I love you and hold me tight. When I say, I am fine and don't want anyone to talk with, I actually mean I am not okay and I want you to comfort me and make me feel better. I overthink tiny emotions, give so much importance to small things. I get emotional in tiny small things. I get happy with unexpected love message in middle of the day rather than big expensive gifts. I find happiness in small things that wont even matter to you at all. I trust easily. I get jealous easily. I don't wish to have temporary people in my life and I become very much serious and will irritate you with my love and care. You will get tired of being with a trouble like me. You will get exhausted and then leave me. I am a whole bunch of trouble and you wont be a

🌸The memories they shared 🌸 "Why are you holding it? Why just you wont let it go?" I asked her. She replied with a smile,"Because I got some irreplaceable memories with him.After all those scars he gave, I still chose to remember Those happy moments" A bundles of memories scattered and tears rolled down her cheek and touched her lips with sour taste of all the memories they made together and then dropped on pillow cover and disappeared. That heaviness she carried could never be explained. She touched the picture of them smiling together with her cold hands. She closely observed it. Her blushing cheek and dilated pupil explained everything. She smiled with those puffy red eyes and kissed the picture with all broken pieces she had, cherishing all those memories and holding her strong. He was changed but his memories stayed same. In those memories, She is still the most beautiful girl for him and he still love her beyond everything. She dont miss the person who brok