Aashima's blog

(This is a story of many women in our society. I tried my best to narrate their feelings here.)           For me, marriage was not a ring worn or a paper signed. It was the union of two hearts beating as one, each that would sacrifice for the other’s happiness and wellbeing.  But mine case was different, I was getting married to a guy who was 10-12 years older than me. He was a stranger, rich, old guy whom I had never met before and I didn’t know anything about.  I always prioritized my family’s choices before anything else. When I thought about my happiest moments in life, they all involved my family. My family has made me who I am today. They have challenged me, loved me and made me a better person. I had so many dreams stacked on, but my family asked me to get married with that guy. At first I refused with covetous heart and said “I want to study, dad”. But wedding date was already fixed and I said “yes” for their happiness....

when you feel hopeless,  Just remember, I am here. Don’t hold back those tears that are ready to fall,  I know its pushing you down and you couldnt stand tall.  You are keeping that pain and fear inside you that will tear you apart,  Unload all those heaviness that you are carrying inside your heart.  That fake smile of yours portraits how happy you are with that wine,  but, only I can see that wet eyes and say, “No, you are not fine”  You feel worthless inside with all that bad qualities you got,  But why don’t you see that soft corner of yours that you never try to plot?  I saw that diary under your pillow that said “I am not good enough”  Why you don’t fight back for yourself when times get rough?  Hold my hand and I will tell you,”you are not alone and you got me by your side”,  You can show me all your bruises and pain that you perfectly hide.  Believe in me, Just believe tha...

It was winter, when You brought happiness in that cold heart of mine,  I was an immature and stubborn kid who was trying to grow and shine. Many years of friendship and trust was very high,  You told me “I really love you” with a long sigh.  I was unsure about my feelings but you filled those gaps between my finger.  You listened to my worst songs and still said “Hello, my favorite singer..”  I started falling, falling for all those silly things you did,  After a long time, I finally confessed “Now, You are mine so you cant get rid”. We held each others’ hand and started that long journey of ours,  Spending every single moment with love and talked for hours and hours.  I was probably the happiest girl alive in that love world I created,  I started showing all those dark side of mine and you know how much I trusted?  I imagined all my future of us being together and many more that were piled,  Oh ho...