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Eternal love

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                             I woke up and find myself cold, I found myself in another world- a world of suffering. As, the numbness of sleep slowly faded from my limbs, I felt dead. I opened my eyes and gasped in a breath, but nothing came and I choked on my own dry tongue.  There was a silence to my soul as I was falling under the frost.  I could feel my heartbeat slowing down thinking about you. I woke up another day without you. In the space that should be filled with your love, keeping my soul aloft- there was a void so black that no light could penetrate.  I remember how one day earlier we were talking about spending cold winter nights in a cozy bed, together and next day I could feel your cold feet on my arms. The heart that used to beat with love were still. The mind that planned so many plans and emotions were blank.  The day when everything felt clouded and dark. The day when I felt the chills in my blood, coldness bringing the synapses of my brain to st
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YOU

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You held it back, calming down your soul and finally ceased the war inside. The dark void consumed you. Now, you are just a hollow plastic, painted happy face- revealing no emotions.  You drained yourself into your anger and changed your path, towering it with all those materialistic happiness. Now, you have designed all this emptiness around you like its your home.  You created this huge wall of “self centered” and wondered why love does not exist into your world. Now, You just stare the person inside the mirror and ask why that never smiles back.  You wrapped yourself in a blanket of fantasy, comforted in shadows of lies and walked out with dishonesty. Now, You are those patterns of paradox that cant be understood with truth. You marked scars around yourself and plastered your soul with sadness. You send her crashing down to the cold wet floor. Now, you are the broken sharp edges that invaded your iced soul.  You loved writing and used to paint your paper with
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Promised place 💞

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Standing alone,  Hidden within the shadows.  I kept waiting at our promised place.  The beautiful summer sky,  illuminating with bright hue.  I cried a little as I left,  the promised place without you.  I walked through the narrow road,  trembling alone with my numb feet.  Reminiscing the memories,  From the first day to the day you cheat.  I visited there every day on the same time,  With tiny hope that you would come by.   But you forgot the promise we made, And filled my heart with some more lie.  Standing alone,  Hidden within the shadows.  I kept waiting at our promised place.  Its been a year, visiting our promised place everyday.  Waiting for you to come, And to make you stay.  I have decided to stop coming here, and erase the memories this place hold.  I am sorry I could not win your heart,  thats brutal, hard and cold.  I am leaving this place,  keeping the memories safe and sound.  Someday if you ev
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Growing old with you ♥️

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We were celebrating their 65th marriage anniversary in a hospital room of oncology ward. The room was filled with devoid of sadness and anguish, the wall were simply creamy and the floor was grey in color. At the far end were windows in brown metal frames. There were stands for intravenous drips and monitors. The room had a stagnant smell.  And there he was, laid down on that bed. His eyes were closed, matching his breaths to the beeping of the machines that surrounded the bed; the only indication of his heartbeat and his existence. His skin looked so fragile that it felt like it would ruptures on anything more than the softness of her touch. He slowly opened his eye which was not focused but randomly moving, obscured with cataracts. His hair was wispy over a scalp. Needles were pricked into his skin to deliver nutrition to his body. Morphines were rushed into his vein to give him pain-free moment with her.  She had rest her hand on his, feeling the coldness in his fingers.
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Unexpressed love ♥️

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                       The sweet refrain of your acoustic guitar speaks a musical language to my soul. The strumming sound hypnotically soothes my heart and I loose myself to the melody of your voice. The lyrics swims through my cerebral cortex like a wakeful dream. It flows through my veins and swirl down in my head.  Every time I hear you sing, I feel blissful. I get lost in your voice with all that lyrics thrilling down my heart.  Falling in love with you was never planned but our stars aligned and a great force pulled me towards you. Your glistening cerulean eyes had a power of washing away my sorrows.  I don’t know how I started falling for all those weird little things you do.  It feels like liquid adrenaline is injected right into my bloodstream whenever you are around.  But, Loving you secretly is a torture, as Its painful to think that you are damaged with betrayal and wont ever let anyone come into your life. I feel helpless to see you avoiding love. Bu
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I am ugly!!

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Yes, I am ugly,  And I am happy with it.  You told me how ugly those scars on my wrist are that they didn’t look fine,  But you never knew the story behind them when I couldn’t shine.  You scratched them to erase and made me look pretty,  But you never embraced them but instead made me feel shitty.  You told me how ugly big thighs I have and teased me for that,  But you never unfolded those days when I was crying and chocolates were all I had.  You pointed those stretch marks on my waist and complained about them,  But you never held me tight to fix those gaps but instead made me feel lame.  You told me how ugly those pimples and blackheads looked on my face,  But you never kissed my forehead and called me beautiful in that phase.  You bought me extra make up products so you could introduce me with your friends,  But you never made me feel good on my skin and instead followed those beauty trends. Yes, I am ugly,  And I am happy with it.  You
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He

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                                    If You ask me who was he, then I would say,  He was the person who made me fall in love and also the same person who made me never do that again!  He was like fireworks,  His sparks glittered my world and took me up high.  Burst out with all those colors and lightening,  Amused me for a while  And within seconds, disappeared.  Burned me down and vanished in scattered clouds.  He was like ocean,  His calmness and softness touched my soul.  Filled my heart with purity and sanity With all that depth I could only see the surface  and within seconds, his waves destroyed me.  Drowned me inside that duskiness with no place to escape.  He was like flower,  His fragrance sedated me completely. Touched my soul with those soft petals and hallucinated me with its beauty.  and within seconds, his thrones brutally ran through my heart and absorbed all that love and trust I had.  then filled all of them inside him and
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